Rocky Brewer was born and raised in Boise Idaho. At age 6 he began playing piano and became the first male member of his 2nd grade choir. At age 16 he fell in love with his future husband, Kimball. Since that time, Rocky has worked very closely with his sister, Jaime, composing and producing multiple albums. He currently resides in Portland Oregon with his husband, Kimball and their cat, Mason.


LYRICS:

Why should it be?
Music and lyrics © 2010 | Robert “Rocky” Brewer

I still remember when I was a child,
the world made no sense
but it worked just the same.
Now I am older and have more control
but the world is still confuses me.
What can I say?

I want to believe, that the reason lay outside of me.
But somewhere in the dark I can feel,
and it wants to light up like a spark.

But why, why won’t it grow, when I yearn for the fire to glow?
Is the past sitting still on the path that I’ve built?
Is there something that I’m supposed to know?

For wise, wise is the man, with his words in the palms of his hands.
Can I put into action these things in my head?
Can my hands do the things that I’ve said?
Or are they just dead?

No golden embers, no tears are remembered.
The sun is not coming, the moon is not here.
Lay in a course, without cart, without horse,
without mention of why you’re just hiding in fear.

This sad music could play all night long,
and no one would know what it means.
This bad habit could break all the ties,
and it makes me go back to my dreams.

But why, why should it be, that the only way out is to sleep?
Is the thought of the world too much for me to bear?
Is there something that I’m supposed to be?

For high, high is the ground,
far away from the world I am found.
If I stay here alone long enough without touch,
can I learn how to live with this crutch?
Do I deserve such?



I am you
Music and lyrics © 2010 | Robert “Rocky” Brewer

Your face in the water, my eyes floating down to you.
I could make it so much harder, but I’ll stay true.

All the times you wanted me to come inside because it was too dark
and that’s what kids are supposed to do. They are supposed to do.

Your hands on a hammer, my swing closing in on you.
I can’t seem to shake this feeling, that one is two.

Every time I look in my eyes, I can’t help but wonder if
the mirror is just you staring back at me, unknowingly.
Every smile I cast seems borrowed, every lie I pass seems sorrowed,
every mile I’ve walked seems to be subdued.
It’s like they belong to you.

Why can I feel you?
And how can one be two?

I can’t help but feel I’ve shamed you,
even though I know it’s not true.
Am I even half the man you wanted?
What have I turned in to?

Your voice singing quiet, my words almost feeling true.
I want to remember so bad, but I sink through.

In a world of shame and sorrow, was I your last hope to
borrow meaning in the face of adversity? Or am I just debris?
When I’m crazy, when I’m charming. When I laugh too loud or I sing,
something in my head speaks from out of view.

It tells me I am you.



Alpha wave
Music and lyrics © 2010 | Robert “Rocky” Brewer

Sinking slowly deep inside.
I know my reasons aren’t right, but
everything just seems so pointless,
and I am far beyond depressed.

You could take my money.
You could take my shelter too.
I don’t need nobody.
I don’t need some pity queue.
Take my past and present.
Take my stupid future too.
Take my so-called talent.
Take it all, cause I am through.

CHORUS
I don’t want to think anymore.
Don’t want to feel this way.
I don’t want to talk through the pain.
Just want to run away.
I don’t want to make a mistake.
Don’t want to fade away.
I don’t want to go till’ I break.
Just want an alpha wave.

Faking solace, I can’t hide.
Oh, emotions burst as they collide.
Then everything goes black and white.
I turn to flames as I ignite.

Don’t forget to make it.
Stand up straight and watch your dress.
Be a man and take it.
What is life without success?
You don’t have the body.
You are ugly. You are screwed.
Everybody’s better.
What the hell is wrong with you?

CHORUS

Run until the lights are frozen
I can’t feel the ground.
I can’t fake another lie and
I will not calm down.

CHORUS



Or so it seems
Music and lyrics © 2010 | Robert “Rocky” Brewer

Oh, I don’t need this.
Another pointless situation
full of pointless accusations.
Oh, what’s your purpose?
Did you live your life in one night,
biding time until the sunrise?

Time doesn’t move.
It just stays there…Forever…
I’m not even there.
What’s the problem?
The problem.

CHORUS

Memories are flowing over me
like autumn leaves.
It’s only me here now.
Or so it seems. Or so it seems.
Or so it seems. Or so it seems.

Oh, I just sit there.
And I wait for some connection,
be myself get no attention.
Oh, I don’t blame you.
But it’s sad that we’re so different
and your love feels nonexistent.

Things never change.
It’s like a painting of yearning.
You don’t seem to care.
What’s the problem.
What’s the problem? The problem, oh.

CHORUS

Memories are coming back to me, from overseas.
I’ve waited all my life. Or so it seems. Or so it seems.
Or so it seems. Or so it seems.

Oh, I can see it.
We were young and so misguided,
now we’re old and undecided.
Oh, I’m so tired.
But the truth seems far away now,
I just have to find it somehow.

Life circles back, like a planet. I feel it.
Are you aware of the problem.
What’s the problem? The problem, oh.

CHORUS



I don’t care
Music and lyrics © 2010 | Robert “Rocky” Brewer

Why don’t you shut your mouth, it’s getting old.
Did you believe that I could be controlled?

I want out. Another moment more, and I’ll shout.
I’ve drunk it to the bottom of the bottle
and I’m almost out, and that’s why

CHORUS
I don’t care.
This love has gone nowhere.
We cannot be repaired.
I guess that life’s not fair.
You tried to pull me down.
Now I won’t be around.
Take all your empty words.
Fly them away like birds.

How can you smile when you’re so cold inside?
All of your confidence is sweet denial.

I can’t sleep, when I know you’re next to me.
I’ve taken every pill.
I’ve counted every sheep.
They only make me ill.
You’re nothing but a creep, and that’s why

CHORUS

Taking what you want and you leave me in the cold,
and I’m sinking like a rock, never doing what I’m told.
And I want to understand why you’re treating me this way
but I’m getting turned around right before you run away.
So I’m making up my mind and I’m sticking to my guns,
cause I know you’ll never change and I know you’re not the one.
So goodbye to all the lies and goodbye to all the pain
and goodbye to your blue eyes always making me insane.

CHORUS

Did you ever think of me?
Did you ever think that I might feel?
I might feel…

Now you’ve seen the worst of me
Now you’ve seen the worst that I can be.
I can be…



Give me the world in a picture
Music and lyrics © 2010 | Robert “Rocky” Brewer

Give me the world in a picture.

Driving, from the sun and sea.
Leaving all the things I’ve achieved.
Beauty, in the sky I can see.
At least it’s something.
I just want to be free.

All the answers in the world are overrated.
All the creatures on the land are unrelated.
So with my eyes open I can see their hearts.
One more hand too far away to grab,
I hate it.

Just one more season, then I’ll go.
All the leaves around us seem to know
that I will stay one day and leave, oh.
Yes, I will stay one day and leave, oh.

Give me the world in a picture.

Sunset over mountains and fields.
Empty… Is this how I should feel?
Tomorrow seems to come without end.
Now it’s autumn, and I don’t want to pretend.

All the answers in the world are overrated.
All the creatures on the land are unrelated.
So with my eyes open I can see their hearts.
One more hand too far away to grab,
I hate it.

Just one more season, then I’ll go.
All the leaves around us seem to know
that I will stay one day and leave, oh.
Yes, I will stay one day and leave, oh.

Give me the world in a picture.

Just one more season, then I’ll go.
Give me the world in a picture.
All the leaves around us seem to know.
Give me the world in a picture.
That I will stay one day and leave, oh.
Give me the world in a picture.
Yes, I will stay one day and leave.
Give me the world in a picture, oh.
Give me the world in a picture.



The poison
Music and lyrics © 2010 | Robert “Rocky” Brewer

I can’t figure out why we’re so empty.
Is it because of me?
I know it’s been hard, I know it’s been rough.
Do you still think of me?

Oh the answers, how they don’t come.
How it makes it hard to breath.

But I know you, and I know me.
I just don’t know how to be.
To be…

I can’t figure out why you’re not calling.
Is it because you fled?
I know we said things, I know it’s not right.
Do you still think we need?

Oh the answers, how they hurt me.
How they make it hard to see.

Do I know you? Do I know me?
Do you still belong to me?

All I know is you.
All I can say is sorry.
Sorry.
I’m sorry.

Oh the answers, how they hurt me,
how they make me want to scream.
And the poison lives within me.
I don’t know how I should bleed.
Should bleed.



Without our names
Music and lyrics © 2010 | Robert “Rocky” Brewer

Is it everything you dreamed about when you were young?
Were you told that life is pointless unless you have won?
Do you think that we could change our minds?
Or shall we do it when we’re out of time?

Are you sorry? Are you stricken? Are you full of pride?
Do you take a chance or chicken out when love collides?
Are you ever gonna be a man?
God, my nails are shot, I need a tan.

CHORUS
We are born without our names and when we die it’s all that stays,
and if you’re not the best just bear in mind.
We are all just big kids now with jobs,
dirty cars and debt, more kids and bars.
We still kick and we still bight,
so cheers to you and me and all mankind.

So, do you think there’s something big that we’re supposed to do?
Or are we simply the result of universal poo?
Do you think that there’s a god out there?
If so, I hope he lets me keep my hair.

Have you questioned? Have you broken? Have you said it twice?
Have you given up or spoken out and paid the price?
Other people try to keep you down.
Just remember that their sh*t is brown.

CHORUS

And if I’m being honest, let me tell the truth…
I don’t really know what I am talking about…

CHORUS

Is it everything you dreamed about when you were young?
Do you think that we could change our minds?
Or shall we do it when we’re out of time?
Time, time, time, time, time, time, time, time, time, time.



Drive on
Music and lyrics © 2010 | Robert “Rocky” Brewer

Drive on through the night and don’t look back.
All of the nights we fall, we fall.
You couldn’t breath at all, at all.

So drive on through the night and don’t ever look back.

I can hear you way back then, making stories so we could pretend.
Our minds are delicate and thin.
So is life. So it begins.
So it doesn’t…

Endless road, going no where.
Going home, home to somewhere you don’t know.
You don’t know. You don’t know. You don’t know.
You don’t know, you don’t know. You don’t know…
Let it go, let it go, let it go.

Drive on through the night and don’t look back.
All of the nights we cry, we cry.
You couldn’t say goodbye.
Goodbye.

So drive on through the night and don’t ever regret.

I can hear your voice again, calling through the endless mind it bends.
Our lives are insignificant.
So is hope. So it begins.
So it doesn’t.

Endless road, road to nowhere.
Going home, home to somewhere you don’t know.
You don’t know. You don’t know. You don’t know.
You don’t know. You don’t know. You don’t know…
You don’t know…
Let it go, let it go, let it go…

Let it go…

Let it go…



If I wanted to
Music and lyrics © 2010 | Robert “Rocky” Brewer

What did you think I would say?
What did you think I would do,
come running back to you
and all the things that you didn’t do?

I’ll bet you’d like it that way.
I’ll turn my happiness gray and put myself aside.
So you can go for another ride.

And so you wanted control.
And so you wanted to mold me into someone new.
But don’t you know that’s something you never do?

And now you stand in my way.
You’re telling me that you’ve changed
and yet you still deny the awful truth and it’s such a lie.

CHORUS
And if I wanted to be unhappy I’d say yes,
I’d take you back, baby.
And if I wanted to be undressed by your dead hands,
I’d say you can, darlin’.

I still remember your ways,
like being stuck in a maze without an end in sight.
And you were asking for such a fight.

So here I am in the past.
I wish that I could recast you as someone who cared.
At least now I’m aware.

CHORUS
And if I wanted to be unhappy I’d say yes,
I’d take you back baby.
And if I wanted to be undressed by your dead hands,
I’d say you can, darlin’.
And if I wanted to be obsessed with your brown eyes,
I’d compromise, baby.
And if I wanted to say hello to emptiness,
I’d take that kiss, honey.

I can feel the memories and emotions from before.
I guess I never cleaned up all your pieces from my floor.
So if you expect me to go back to what we were,
just listen to my words.

CHORUS

I don’t know why I was with you.
I don’t know why I had tried to make it last.
Oh, it’s in the past. It’s in the past, in the past.

I don’t know why you’re still talking.
I don’t know why I’m still watching.
Walk away. Oh, walk away.
Walk away, walk away.



The end game
Music © 2010 | Robert “Rocky” Brewer | Lyrics © 2010 | Nicholas Orr

Walking back from the wall,
covered in the memories of it all.
I’m grasping for the curtain cords.
It’s not my fault,
I’m falling hard so you can see it in my eyes.

I want the end game to start.
I want the end game to start.

Walking from the shaded streets,
from a moment I thought would never be.
I’m tired of not feeling real.
All of my tears won’t mean a thing if I stop this here.

I want the end game to start.
I want the end game to start.

You were my sky, you were my sea.
Now I can’t see, now I can’t breathe.
I thought I was stronger, where could I be.
Can’t let you take my life away from me.

I want the end game to start.
I want the end game to start.



I’m gone
Music and lyrics © 2010 | Robert “Rocky” Brewer

I want to see you wipe the tears from your eyes,
pick up the pieces and get back to your life.
And even though I miss you so, there’s no going back
because in life, you just get one chance and

CHORUS
I’m gone and you’re not.
It’s your life to live, so give it all that you’ve got and
I’ll wait, from far away, and dream of days to come
when I can call your sweet name.
Cause in the end, in the end, it’s just a song.

I want to touch your face so bad I could cry.
But when we leave the earth we must say goodbye.
And even though I had to go, we’ll see a new day.
You know with time…There’s never enough and

CHORUS

You know I wanted to grow old with you,
to make a home and see the world.
But in the midst our hopes and dreams sailed to the sky.
And all I want in death, love, is for you to feel alive.

CHORUS

Oh, it’s just a song.



Take me home
Music and lyrics © 2010 | Robert “Rocky” Brewer

All, all of the answers,
all of them fade away.
All, all of the sunsets,
all of my reasons, do the same.

Take me home.
Take me home.

Some, some of the endings,
some of them go astray.
Some, some of the seasons,
some of the people, do the same.

Take me home.
Take me home.

All, all of the answers,
all of them fade away.
All, all of the sunsets,
all of my reasons, do the same.

Take me home.
Take me home.



It’s not over
Music and lyrics © 2010 | Robert “Rocky” Brewer

I always knew, through my dreaming, we were alive.
And you, wanting life to give a little harder with consequence aside.

We had our adventure, but now you’re far away,
and when we’re taking to the future, there’s nowhere left to play, but

CHORUS
It’s not over. Over.
It’s never over. Over.
But it’s alright to change your mind.
You can come back anytime.
Who’s to say that what we made isn’t family anyway?

I’m looking for something real, to feel alive.
No more looking through the glass,
no more needless waiting to be revived.

We’ll drive to Seattle or maybe to L.A.
We’ll stay in cheap hotel rooms and let our music play, cause

CHORUS

Far off faded bridges through fog and rainy haze.
The TV and the sofa, they’re ready when you say cause

CHORUS